What if you were here?

And what if you were here in the next room laying down in bed daydreaming?

what if you were taking a shower?

what if you were sitting here on the other end of the sofa occupied with your cell phone browsing, “like”ing, commenting,poking, chatting perhaps with an interesting quiet, or a lonely one like yourself and I… and all that, in absolute silence…?

I sit here and imagine you are here in the next room laying down in bed daydreaming.

I imagine you are in the shower and you, are not singing, because you never did.

I imagine you are sitting on the other end of the sofa occupied with your cell phone, browsing, “like”ing, commenting, poking, chatting with an interesting someone…all in absolute silence.

I close my eyes, hear Chopin playing and feel whatever is…and I am thinking I am alone but not lonely.

Painting of Mohammad Mohammadzadeh #Kerman #Iran

Journey of life

What a journey is the journey of life sometimes it is long, as far as the journey of I to my higher self, sometimes as close as a trip from the earth to the moon. The moon that is right there in the sky and we see it almost every night, we can calculate how far it is and we can spend days and night to build the right machinery to go there. And the far journy to the higher self, no destination, no end, as endless as when I stare at the spirit of a flower, as deep as the potency of a drop from the ocean. In the drop I found the ocean, yet the ocean is ocean, the drop just a drop. But as the poet said when the drop joins the ocean it looses the self, it joins the higher self, it becomes one with it.

Are we not all drops of humanity, isn’t there one soul, one spirit and we are just drops, unique pieces of a higher Self, higher Being, the Spirit of love.

Do you have a list of good and bad people?

 

Have you got any unfinished business going on in your life? And by that I mean a relatinship which has remained unresolved, or at least one of the parties feels it was left unresolved?

What steps would you take to resolve it? Or, have you ignored it for so long and you think it is not worth digging in anymore?Do you beleive that tests of life will be repeated until we get it? In another word we keep bumping into the same people when it comes to relationship, be it men or women, until we finally get what is needed to be healed in ourselves? 

Don’t you hate it when you meet people who irritate you or, are unfair to you? Don’t you feel like they didn’t really get to know the reality of who you are?

What is your reality? Who are you really? Do you know how you want to be known? Or you let people judge you based on your reactions? Are you your reactions? How about when you were proacting? Wasn’t that a part of you too? Haven’t you been misjudged then if people only stamped you based on a single reaction?

It is sometimes challenging to be fair in our approach towards each other. We can be hard on each other and probably it originates from the way we see ourselves, the high expectation we have from oursleves, the perfection that doesn’t exists. We so wish we could be perfect and it is so frustrating not to be, that the mere observation of it in others can just blow our mind and nerves. How can someone be such a childish man or woman : ) How? Well just like I am so childish sometimes :) and maybe it is ok. Maybe I can start being forgiving towards myself and consquently forgiving towards others. 

Maybe we don’t need to have a list of good and bad people in our mind. Maybe we should keep people in our hearts rather than our mind, because mind is rational, judgmental and sometimes cruel. Heart is unreasonable, forgiving,  and compassionate.

Do you approve people with your mind or your heart?

If you had the magic stick what would you do?

 

If you had the Magic stick what would you do?

What if life is really a domino effect and you or I are the one move? What if our little act is „it”?

Not long ago when I was a child I was watching a black and white movie on TV, it must have been early 70s, a man was watching one of those old televisions and all of a sudden someone from the movie started talking to him and despite his unbelief he responded and literally stepped into the television and eneded up in the program. It all happend in few minutes just like a miracle. I never forget how astonished I was with all that.

Today this is an ordinary thing when we think about interactive TV shows or popular morning shows on private TV channels.

What I want to say is that someone dared to think and create that old movie I saw, he/she did or didn't have the vision but dared to dream and be creative. Now what is it I and you want to create?

I had a patient  yesterday in my office who was a mother of a young girl, she had herself stopped taking contraceptive pills because she was told they were not good, but she asked what would I suggest for her daughter who would soon be 16 year old.

I recalled what I had studied in medical school that 90% of  hepatoma (benign tumors of liver) occure amongst women who take contraceptives. Also how  the artificial hormones are  affecting the normal flora in the intestines and consequently increasing the growth of fungus in the body... and I also recalled I had taken contraceptives myself for a short while after I had been married... she agreed with the science but asked what is the alternative? And I said education, abstinence! Tell your daughter sex is for grown ups.Instead we can educate them about the importance of simple and basic things in life, like softness of a touch, taste of an apple, reflection in life, identifying quaities in  oneself  and others and maybe connecting with people, with men, at different levels.... well I managed to make the lady cry, and she said she was touched I didn't ask which part of what I had said because I thought I was being logical : )

After she left I didn’t have time to reflect but later in the evening I did. I live in a country where people are very honest, this allows me to be myself, I am Iranian, everytime I was honest I end up being interrogated with the revolutionary guards. Here I can be creative in my profession I can practice the theory that education and creating enthusiasm for health is a part of medical profession. 

Women can take contraceptives, so did I in a committed realtionship, however we should have the knowledge and make a choice and not to take it so easy. Whenever I ask young ladies in my practice whether they are on any medication they say no, and when I ask how about anti-baby pills? They say oh yes that I take! If that is not a chemical medication I wonder what is?

Now getting back to my original thought and question that brought me here:

"if you had the magic stick what would you do?"

I want to say I would end all the wars, but what if the wars start again because of lack of knowledge and understanding? What if it all starts again because of love for fake power?And I only had one magic move!!!

What would you do if you had the magic stick?

Do you greet yourself?

 I woke up and read my messages, answered some, made appointments, canceled appointments, participated in discussions on social media,read something,” like-ed” something, even shared some stuf, and all that while I was still in bed, early morning, as early as  still dark in Oslo.

 My bed is comfortable, white and so welcoming. My feeling was „stay a little longer”. I then thought about my work and felt energized and jump out of bed. I looked at my hair in the mirror. Every morning I do that, checking whether I look like a lion or is it ok : ) then I look into the depth of my own eyes and say to myself „good morning little Pari”.

Some mornings I forget to greet myself, maybe those are the mornings my body is confused and unrested, maybe my thoughts are disturbed because my heart had been expectant the night before. Maybe I forgot I exist beyond this body.

Today the bulb broke in my bathroom, I looked at it and smiled, it is so high and I can’t change that, and the ladder I have is a little one. A tall friend will come handy. I brought a bedside lamp in the bathroom the light of which has made the bathroom very romantic. In this dim light one looks different....so different I heard myself saying ”how ’ you doin?” as Joey used to say in „Friends” :)

I like the proper light because it shows all the realities and when you greet yourself or other people, you know who you are greeting. When winter comes and Norway gets really dark....people hide in their hoods, I do too. We hardly see the realities, we lit candles in our homes and that dim light is beautiful,everyone seems different in that light...so beautifully different.

Those mornings I remember to greet myself, when I look into the depth of my eyes and I almost see my own soul, I greet people differently. It is as if when I connect to my own soul, I can connect to theirs too. And the days I don’t look into my own soul, I look for shortcuts and back doors! Everything becomes invisible when I am invisible to myself. Then I start labeling myself, I am angry, I am shy, I am irritated, I am a woman PMS-ing, I am a man in my cave, I have pain, someone has died, someone has left me...whereas the truth is...I forgot to look into my own eyes this morning and greet my own soul... I left me...I forgot me, and that „me” is in pain, still alive,beyond the body, still connected to the source of all love and powers of the universe, waiting for the little Pari, little you, to connect to it.

Have you looked at your own eyes in the mirror and said ”Good morning” to your soul?

 

 

Do you have faith in your own lies to yourself?

 

Do you always tell the truth to yourself? Do you lie to yourself? How often do you do that? Or maybe you never do that and you thought how can one lie to oneself?

Few years ago I was attending and, later tutoring a course, and one of the questions in the begining of the curriculum was ”can one lie to oneself?”

Indeed the nature of the material on that course was to raise awarness, create healthy discussions and understanding amongst the participants and I must say I learned a lot from the diverse answers and comments everyone gave and I still do when I tutor one of these courses, but to myself, at the very first time, it felt like it lightened up a whole area in my brain and of course that area went dark again : )

 I believe I do lie to myself and no matter how much I want to get rid of it, I find myself trapped into that darkness.

I find myself saying I beleive in the Oneness of Mankind when that part of mankind who are wondering in the streets of Oslo begging bothers me so much. 

I look in the mirror and see the wrinkles around my eyes and mouth , I sadly hear myself saying ” I should do something about that” when  originally  I beleive in the power of laughter and practically I know wrinkles are the foot print of laughters, at least in my life!

I say I have intolerant to milk when no test on earth can proove that and I know deep down I have problem with my mother and I am so tired to work on that I rather skip the milk.

I say ” it is ok, take care!” to a man who has broken my heart when I want to scream so loudly until God, love and universe will hear me and not give me the same guy over and over again.

I hear the news about lack of water in some parts of the world poor economical situations, war, racial prejudice and I whisper in my inner being „ we don’t have this problem in Norway” where deep down I know it is one earth and those who have those problems sooner or later will find their way to the streets of Oslo.

I find myself in the dark over and over again.

What lies do you say to yourself? Do you dare to go to that dark area in your head? If you know you lie to yourself, the mere awareness of it, will it make you a more conscious person about your own being? Will it help you to be a more truthful person? 

What will happen if all the people of the earth would be truthful? 

And this was yet another question on the curriculum on that course now that I recall :) 

What would happen if all the people of the earth would be truthful? 

Does this question navigate you to the bright side of your brain? It will if you are an optimistic person. If you are realistic you will think „ but how can that be possible”? What about the politicians? what about the lawyers? hehehe!

Are you a politician or a lawyer? Probably not! What if I decide to be truthful to myself? I haven’t even started with you : ) and I know that is none of my business. 

The thing is, only when I start ”doing” what I am ”being” that hope is created and faith is established in me.

”By Faith it is meant conscious knwoledge and the practice of good deeds”

 

Hell is cold in Oslo

The sun is shining over Olso and it is beautiful. If I were to follow Eckard Tolle’s suggestion of staying in „Now” and, I must admit  I am doing that right now, I probably will end up soaked in the rain a little later! The thing is when the sun shines in Oslo it is so special you would think it stays forever, the way it caresses your skin is so soft it simply takes you away even beyond „now” to the eternity.But then a simple white innocent cloud covering the sun brings you back to the” hell” which by the way is awefully „chilly” in Oslo.

Yes, you live in a cold hell and  a warm heaven a thousand times a day and that, hasn’t made these people moody! Only those who are in their menopause, PMS-ing, suffering from eating disoerders,drug addicts, people suffering from fibromyalgia,arthritis, thyroid illnesses, skin problems...all for a valid reason of course says I who is a woman and a  doctor and really feels for her patients.

These people are calm, when you stop them in the street to ask for a direction they give you a friendly smile, maybe because they see I am lost with my google map in my hand. Hmmm...now that I am writing about it...maybe they are actually finding it quite amusing.

The truth is I am one of those who has not much sense for orientation. It used to bother me and make me a bit anxious but now I joke about it. It seems to me that ever since I take my shortcomings easier and more with humor, I accept myself more fully... just the way I am. This doesn’t mean there is no place for development, but being critical and over analytical about everything in life is definitly the way towards depression and it happens so smoothly just like the way that innocent white cloud comes and covers the sun!All of a sudden you feel your life is all cloudy, chilly and depressing,you remeber the pain, it all aches, you forget there was a sun, there is a sun, shining right there and has only been covered temporarily with thoughts or just a though, fear of being left alone, maybe abandonment?

 Now you have probably heard about the average of 70,000 thoughts crossing our mind every day, I am not sure where does that come from I have not found the real source as yet, I just know there are so many thoughts, or better say so many clouds hah!?

The sun as perfect, warm,shiny and beautiful as it is,if I get too close to it, it will burn me, yet closer and it will consume me. Does that make the sun imperfect? Does that make me weak because I can’t stand too much intimacy with the sun? Is this about learning my boundaries and limitations? Is there any truth in this about being self-protective yet enjoying the sun from a distance?

I guess I have got carried away by the power of now : ) however, I have come to realize that external influences are immense on us and there are many thoughts that cross our mind, yet it is our choice to grab one, ponder upon it and to let go of another. Do I want to keep thinking about what I didn’t get? Wouldn’t that frustrate me?

 The good news is even behind that innocent white cloud that can sometimes get angry, dark and, grumpy you know the sun is still shining. Clouds will pass, just sit and observe for a short while and then start ”doing”!